You should make endeavor in order to succeed in whatever you want. You cannot obtain it in easy way. There are two paths, if you choose the harder one, you would make the best choice. You have to learn something you have always avoided even if your life was not easy, you did not want to learn your karmic lesson. Now you should do it. If you apply the old patterns in life you will not make progress in any segment of your life, especially in those that the question relates to. You should be ready to take responsibility for your actions to be more self-reliant, self – assured.